i officially ran out of ideas.

stress induced perioral dermatitis.

dry, itchy skin around my mouth (so embarrassing looking), spread a rash all the way up to my eyelids and forehead. The $115 explanation of the day: you’re a woman between 20-40 and may have a significant amount of stress in your life.

Well. Sort of, I guess.

it started as a small dry patch below some cracked lips after spring break. By that Friday, I thought it was an allergic reaction to my new medication. I stopped the medication, and went to the doctors on campus both Friday and Monday. Every day last week was painful and hurt and la la la, but some days were better than others. I presented at the Research Colloquium without it being too noticeable, but by Saturday night at the banquet, it was starting to stretch up my cheeks. Not itching is so hard, and sometimes I’d cave to bring my lips relief. My bottom lip is constantly swollen and hard to the touch, making me want to bite or itch it (itch being stab it with my fingernails).

I tried everything and ran out of ideas. Water to hydrate dry skin. Multivitamin in case of vitamin deficiency. Replaced toothpaste. Considered re-washing my sheets if detergent was causing an allergy. and SO MANY face products and about a pound of Vaseline.

The more I read, the more I feared that all the doctor would have to say to me is that is is caused by stress. Sure enough.

I woke up this morning looking like this:

I scheduled a derm appointment for tomorrow, but thanks to the “power of the mom,” my mom called and got me in today instead.

I haven’t thought I was particularly stressed any more than normal, but apparently my body thinks differently.

I’ve made six trips to Walgreens in the past 12 days. I made two today.

She gave me an oral medication (big pills…one down, a zillion to go) to take once a day and a facial gel to apply twice a day. We’ll see how this goes. I feel bad for demonizing my medication, but apparently that was not the problem…

The thing I’m trying NOT to think about (because it causes more stress, and also makes me want to cry a little bit), is that she said it could “take up to two months before the inflammation starts to go down.” I’M SORRY, WHAT? I don’t exactly have two months to wait around on this.

Sigh. So. Breathing exercises. What else do you do to not be subconsciously stressed?

The more you know, folks.


Real Talk: School is hard.

With every day, it gets harder to get out of bed to go to class. It seems more and more trivial each time. I’ve got a job (this is new, and good. 🙂 ). Plus. I found out last night that I no longer have any staying-up stamina. My eyes couldn’t stay open at 1:15, and so la-dee-dah I went to bed instead of studying more. I had a test this morning. I was the first person done, and when I walked up, he said, “You’re finished?” and I said, “Close enough.”
I surprisingly felt better about this one than the last one, so that’s good…Things are starting to pile up and freak me out. There’s something every weekend from now until June 1 now, and that’s NOT including in-class assignments and such!I heard we have an assignment for Wednesday that is 3 pages long of opinion on China’s energy policy. YIKES. Like I had an opinion on that…

I can make it through 39 more days.

I can make it through 39 more days.

I can make it through 39 more days.

I can make it through 39 more days.

i’m not dead yet

so that’s a plus.

two nights in a row, i stayed up super late studying in the dining room. last night, i was writing a paper for poli sci. Which. Obviously didn’t get done ahead of time. I finally nailed down my exact argument around midnight.

I stayed awake until 5am this morning. Got up at 8:30 to keep finishing…

It’s turned in at 3:30.

Didn’t fall asleep/not even tired in class when we watched a movie. Props to me.

went on a date with Justin and saw Ender’s Game! Didn’t fall asleep there either, so that’s awesome.

and now watching the thunder before not doing any homework before bed. because i can.

this evening has been great. i feel a headache coming on, so it’s about time for bed. these last 7 minutes of the game may be the happiest bedtime of my week before drifting off to a win.


sorry the formatting/grammar is weird on this one. sometimes I capitalise, sometimes…yeah no.

7QT16: Fun articles I read this week

Well, after the week of nightmarish scheduling, it was followed by a week of “I don’t know what to do with my life and then all the sudden it’s 2 am and I’ve only read buzzfeed all day.” Finally linking up with Jen again… So, without further ado:

Articles I’ve read this week (because I haven’t done much else):

1. Harry Potter – This is a really in-depth look into the Wizarding World. Don’t read if you want all your hopes and dreams to be crushed.

2. OKC Thunder – This is about Steven Adams. I’m pretty close to wanting an Adams jersey, no lie. You just want to love him. (See: article)

3. Oil & Gas – So…This is a thing people believe in…why? For one, my school would literally cease to exist if this took place here. This just makes no sense, honestly. All those people are going to continue to drive their cars, so they’re still stakeholders in the industry in one way or another.

4. Just funny – Finding love in all the right places…

5. I cried at this. – Precious. This provides loads of insight into caring for someone in a situation like this.

6. Adoption Family Trees – This woman has lots of good things to say when we have dumb school projects.

7. Marriage – Well aren’t all these ideas just adorable…

8. BONUS! I read most of this book this week for my poli sci class.